Fears I didn’t Consider When I got Pregnant Again
I think its normal for expectant moms to fear certain things…is the baby developing normally? Is there just 1 in there? Will I have a good delivery? Etc, etc.
However, when I got pregnant with sweet #2, new fears popped up that I didn’t expect and that have left me a little “off” a times.
Here’s the list.
1) How can I possibly love this baby as much as Emmeline? Is there really that much room in my heart?
2) What if Emmeline feels less loved when this one arrives?
3) How am I going to make it on even less sleep with 2 babies that need a happy mommy?
4) What if I can’t remember how to take care of an infant?
5) What if Emmeline hates the new baby and hates us for bringing her into the house?
6) How do you balance 2 kids that need you at the same time? And still make dinner? (I can barely make dinner w/ 1)
7) Will I ever get to take a nap, ever again?
Yes, some of these sound a little silly, and I know plenty of moms who have made it through 2 under 2…but I haven’t. And I’m afraid.
But just when I feel nearly overcome with anxious thoughts, new thoughts come into my head.
1) I am the Lord your God.
2) I have called you by name and you are mine.
3) Do no fear, for I will be with you.
4) I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you.
5) My yoke is easy and my burden is light.
6) Like a weaned child with its mother is my soul…trust in the Lord, from this time forth and forever more.
7) Through Him all things were created.
Not one of these sparrows falls to the earth without His knowing, and you are worth more than many sparrows.
9) I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
10) Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him, how I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er. Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus, oh for grace to trust Him more.
Ok, I think we can agree that those thoughts are a little more encouraging, a little less dismal, and far more helpful than the first list. Lord, help me to fix my eyes upon you and not myself or my crazy life. May you be glorified in all we do.
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Beautifully put. You are a wonderful Mama and I know that you will continue to do great with 2.
Hi Katie, My boys are 2 years 5 days apart and I had the same fears. Here are my 2 cents…
You will love baby #2 just as much. It’s a different love, but it’s just as big. Emmeline will always be your first, the one that made you a mommy. But you’ll have a love just as powerful for baby #2. Hopefully Emmeline won’t be jealous or angry. Let her feel included – let her bring you diapers, let her hold the baby, etc. Make sure to point out that some things she does are only for big girls. My first son showed very little jealousy and was thrilled to have his “baby brudder.” He was a little uneasy in the hospital – i think the big bed and all the medical stuff scared him. but once we got home with the baby he was great. Just like you found a groove and figured it out with 1, you’ll find a groove and figure it out with 2. Good luck!